You're the most beautiful thing in my mind.
It's something that isn't defined
But really divine.
An angel sent from heaven deep in the sky
I see in my eyes
When I look at you. When I'm in the dark, you're body glows.
It's sad to know that you're just a ghost.
I'm in love with you though.
They say I have to go and find a healthy way to cope, but I'd rather show
You the hundred million ways that you're perfect.
Alphabetical order. I know that you're worth it.
I know you're not there, but I still wouldn't search
For a better person, knowing there's no such thing.
I've been neglected all my life.
You can blame Zed's detention for the strife.
My heart is red, rejected, ready, ripe
For the taking. I made you so I give the rights to my angel.
But when I was sober, you'd disappear.
Do you want me to fall into drinking, dear?
I'd do anything to see you smile, even if it means I have to take life and rid it clear.
I'll take the ridicule.
I'll take a dive into the kiddy pool.
My life is yours. I want to feel your warmth,
But your heart's cold as mine, making a frigid room.
You sing a different tune.
You leave an open wound
Wherever you linger. Still I feel that your love is overdue.
I just want to hold you near.
Please, pull me closer dear.
Your voice is all I hope to hear.
I'm close to tears. I hope your real.

(Every little glance my way,
Every time you wanted to hang,
You seemed so interested,
Could you tell me,
Was it real or was it all in my head?)

I created this vision.
I hate that we're living
So separated. I can't take that we're different
Entities. You were the only thing I had to change the lonely me.
I'm taking risperidone, making you go away.
I don't think that I want to go home today.
Not without you, but I know it's the only way
To truly be happy, but see my soul's insane.
I'm begging for mercy.
They said you would hurt me.
I didn't believe you'd be venturing early.
We were so close, when you departed, it was so messy and dirty.
I question reality.
Was it all an elaborate fallacy?
See, you left me effortlessly. Did you even care?
Actually baby, w-were you even there?
You kept me alive back when I was a child.
Even as I grew, you smiled and smiled.
I wanted to take you to ride every mile
Of life, but you decided you're tired
Of trying. You started to vanish, so so did I.
I'll see you again when I close my eyes,
But they'll just take me away again. I don't plan to live without you. I guess I'm supposed to die.
You were a poster sign
For when my hopeless life
Was going to go: Tonight.
I overdose. Goodnight.
The doctors close the curtains on my motionless body and hold the lights.
I said you're from heaven. I hope I'm right.

(Every little glance my way,
Every time you wanted to hang,
You seemed so interested,
Could you tell me,
Was it real or was it all in my head?)