If he could feel emotions, I hope this exposes them.
His home wasn't broken, but it felt like a demon approaching
When at the age of nine, he lost his emotions.
"You'll get them back in the morning
If the sun shines."
But when he woke up, it was pouring.
He hated water now. Hydrophobia was the only thing
Left in his heart. Not even joy, anger or loneliness.
He just wanted to feel. Pain, love, lust, anything.
He was wishing that a miracle would come with just a steady blink.
He always wondered who the voices in his head were.
The ones who promised help, but made him hate the rainy weather.
From there on out, he suffered, but silently. He was severed.
He mastered faking laughs. He took a page right out the ledger
Though he'd seem under pressure,
But the pain couldn't be measured.
He felt like the only time he could be happy was never,
Until he went online and met people who made him better
And things began turning around as soon as he met her.

(I believe, I believe
There's love in you
Gridlocked on the dusty avenues
Inside your heart,
Just afraid to go.
I am more, I am more
Than innocent
But just take a chance and let me in
And I'll show you ways
That you don't know)

Because of that girl, he smiled for the first time
In so long. The reason I make these words rhyme
Is due to knowing love can beat out any mental illness.
She provided a blizzard and cooled the pain out of his burned life.
But that was all before the worst arrived.
It always seems like God never lets the unhurt survive.
The girl was hospitalized. Even if she'd act strong,
She still had a heart attack, and after, she passed on.
She was only seventeen.
The past's gone, but not the memories it leaves.
The last emotion he ever felt was the sadness of that loss.
The pain would last long
But he knew he had to act strong
Like she did.
If he could relive it without the secrets,
He would, but now his feelings
Will never be a real thing.
But now she's resting peacefully so he's gotten what he was seeking.
Her spirit lives within him
And down upon him, she sings...

(I believe, I believe
There's love in you
Gridlocked on the dusty avenues
Inside your heart,
Just afraid to go.
I am more, I am more
Than innocent
But just take a chance and let me in
And I'll show you ways
That you don't know)